Is borderline rage the same as splitting? I have no idea, but I’m trying to be aware of my symptoms, yet I cannot in those awful moments when it’s happening. I can go from loving my husband to wanting to divorce him in a second. I think it’s called splitting in BPD, but my emotions are filled with rage. It’s terrible behaviour because I don’t know if what I’m feeling in those moments is theCONTINUE READING…
When you breakdown in front of a health expert, immediately it comes down to mental health issues. Sure, I have a diagnosis of BPD and have still not heard back from the relevant dialectical behavioural therapy team, and I doubt I ever will. BPD and overwhelm is normal, and as a new mom it’s shown its face almost every day, at some point. Mostly in the evenings, but lack of sleep has certainly pushed itCONTINUE READING…
Those of you with Borderline Personality Disorder or Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD), as it is also known, may experience splitting. It’s a horrible experience when it comes. As we cannot control our emotions already, feelings of anger and hatred can come out against others and we act with impulse. What is Borderline Personality Disorder and Splitting According to Very Well Health, BPD splitting is a symptom of borderline personality disorder (BPD) in which a person isCONTINUE READING…
I only heard about Democratic Therapeutic Community earlier this year, after my psychologist tried to get me community mental health support, which they denied me, instead saying I could self-refer for DTC. What a lie! My therapist did not mention this treatment once, even though I signalled to her that I likely had borderline personality disorder when I first started the sessions due to my inability to maintain relationships, paranoia, daily skin picking, and fearCONTINUE READING…
Depression is a serious illness, and the statistics state that 1 in every 4 people will develop a mental illness at some time in his or her life. As a borderline, or emotionally unstable person, I hate it when depression rears its ugly head, coupled with loneliness and emptiness. I have little energy to want to do anything. I neglect my family. I neglect my own hygiene. I don’t want to eat, not even comfortCONTINUE READING…
On Monday, during my daily morning of reciting scripture for thirty minutes in an effort to strengthen my impaired or under developed prefrontal cortex, I received a clear message that I needed to put a daily walk into my life. The first walk was mentally difficult, but I made a conscious effort to complete this goal – for myself. Although I was back home in just over an hour, I didn’t feel that much betterCONTINUE READING…
I’ve been struggling with my emotions for over ten years, unable to deal this raw intensity, tired of being too sensitive and tearful. I came across the symptoms of BPD in a short pamphlet that I picked up from a doctor’s surgery in Heywood, and upon reading about the criteria for BPD, I couldn’t believe that this was me, this was what I had been experiencing for so very long. I hadn’t heard of thisCONTINUE READING…
Trying to find the strength to make it through the day can be difficult with mental illness. Since attempting suicide several times in a short space of time, I’ve been under the home treatment team. It doesn’t help that some of the people I have never met before. Do they actually know my diagnosis – EUPD, and that paranoia is one of my traits? The man today, whom I had never met before, didn’t understandCONTINUE READING…
The chronic emptiness in borderline personality disorder is what makes this mental disorder so misunderstood by the mentally able. It may seem like we are trying to say that we are ‘special’ or even being ‘manipulative’, but if you have never felt this chronic emptiness then you will never understand how mentally isolating it feels to be so alone in a world of plenty. There is so much variety in this world, so much vibranceCONTINUE READING…
I’m tired of overreacting in BPD to something as silly as someone not showering or making an effort, which may seem extreme to normal minded person, but this is what actually goes on in the head of a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. What my mind did was link to a time when my partner had shaved his face before he was meeting his ex-girlfriend, so when he started walking up to me last night forCONTINUE READING…
