Trying to find the strength to make it through the day can be difficult with mental illness. Since attempting suicide several times in a short space of time, I’ve been under the home treatment team. It doesn’t help that some of the people I have never met before. Do they actually know my diagnosis – EUPD, and that paranoia is one of my traits? The man today, whom I had never met before, didn’t understandCONTINUE READING…
The chronic emptiness in borderline personality disorder is what makes this mental disorder so misunderstood by the mentally able. It may seem like we are trying to say that we are ‘special’ or even being ‘manipulative’, but if you have never felt this chronic emptiness then you will never understand how mentally isolating it feels to be so alone in a world of plenty. There is so much variety in this world, so much vibranceCONTINUE READING…
Splitting is a term used in Borderline Personality Disorder. I’ve only recently received a diagnosis of Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder, or BPD, as it was previously called by the National Institute For Health And Care Excellence (NICE). One of my recurring issues during periods of crisis is something called splitting. This has caused incredible harm with my partner, and he’s actually afraid of me because he doesn’t know how I am from one day toCONTINUE READING…
I’ve recently received a diagnosis of Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder, which I knew even before I received the diagnosis from plenty of reading. To be honest, I wanted the diagnosis more for the people in my life, as as least my behaviour was related to a mental disorder. Anyhow, it seems that people with EUPD, or BPD have an underdeveloped prefrontal cortex, which relates to reasoning during triggers. For ten years, I’ve had no ideaCONTINUE READING…
Is there understanding from your friends and family when you describe your behaviour because of borderline personality disorder? Until I picked up that short five page mental disorders booklet in Heywood, I had never ever considered that I might have borderline personality disorder, until I read its symptoms — instability in relationships, fear of rejection / abandonment, suicidal thoughts, self-harming behaviour, paranoia etc. The GP had just said I had major depressive disorder back in 2016 afterCONTINUE READING…
I purchased a Proform TDF 1.0 indoor cycle over three years ago, and I use it regularly. It can be used with iFIT, which is a separate fitness subscription, but I often wish I had just purchased a basic indoor cycle at the third of its £899 price. The spin bike or indoor cycle provides a fantastic workout. With enough effort, you can burn over 500 calories per hour. I completed 42 kilometres yesterday inCONTINUE READING…
The following text is the copyright of The Recovery Village. The aim is to raise awareness of dermatillomania, or compulsive skin picking, and to dispel the common myths that often arise Myth #3: Dermatillomania is caused by an underlying skin condition. Fact: Skin picking results in skin damage, but is not itself caused by any skin abnormalities. Skin picking disorder is psychological impulse control and obsessive-compulsive disorder where the individual picks at normal skin. TheyCONTINUE READING…
It hasn’t been a good day today. I woke up sobbing, then went into prayer and read the bible. I asked God to use this vessel of a body for His glory, tried to surrender my life but said to God that I don’t know how this looks. I’ve met really horrible Christians in my time who no doubt think that they are no longer sinning, because I was struggling with the skin picking, orCONTINUE READING…
Part 2 of the 8 part myths about skin picking disorder blog posts, with the copyright of the text at therecoveryvillage.com. Myth #2: Excoriation is a type of self-harm. Fact: While compulsive skin picking is harmful to the picker, it is not a self-harm disorder. Self-harm, officially known as “non-suicidal self-injury” (NSSI), is a psychological disorder where affected individuals deliberately inflict destruction on their own body tissue. They usually do this by biting, cutting, scratchingCONTINUE READING…
I found this helpful article on therecoveryvillage.com, so I’m going to include this in eight separate posts. Text taken from https://www.therecoveryvillage.com Myth #1: Skin picking is just a bad habit. Fact: Skin picking is a disorder that has known genetic, anatomical, physiological and environmental causes. Recent research has demonstrated that compulsive skin picking appears to be related to anatomical changes in the brain. Specifically, changes in the thickness of the brain cortex in the parietalCONTINUE READING…
