daily walking

Daily walking may be a chore to some people, but for those of us who love to walk, it is a huge calorie burner. I’m going to give you my walking stats for this week. In four 1+ hour walks, I’ve burned over 3000 calories. There are lots more benefits to walking than just calorie burning, but this post is going to focus on the calorie burn. Monday 9th March 2020 The first walk ofCONTINUE READING…

wounded spirit

Mental illness is an infirmity that has many peaks and valleys. Statistics affirm that 1 in every 4 people will experience mental illness in their lifetime. When we are at our worst, where else can we turn but to those we love. What if our loved ones cannot bear our frailties in our wounded spirit? Proverbs 18:14 mentions a wounded spirit – a spirit that has been hurt, damaged, broken and alone and is trying hardCONTINUE READING…

daily walking

On Monday, during my daily morning of reciting scripture for thirty minutes in an effort to strengthen my impaired or under developed prefrontal cortex, I received a clear message that I needed to put a daily walk into my life. The first walk was mentally difficult, but I made a conscious effort to complete this goal – for myself. Although I was back home in just over an hour, I didn’t feel that much betterCONTINUE READING…

dr martens complaint

Regarding my Dr Martens complaint, which I opened up about two weeks ago. So I’d opened a complaint against Dr Martens via Resolver, and I was getting nowhere fast. The original purchase was from Amazon, and Amazon were shunning responsibility. Dr Martens were saying that because I hadn’t purchased from them directly that I needed to liaise with where the boots were purchased, as my contract with with them. Wrote to the CEO of bothCONTINUE READING…

BPD

I’ve been struggling with my emotions for over ten years, unable to deal this raw intensity, tired of being too sensitive and tearful. I came across the symptoms of BPD in a short pamphlet that I picked up from a doctor’s surgery in Heywood, and upon reading about the criteria for BPD, I couldn’t believe that this was me, this was what I had been experiencing for so very long. I hadn’t heard of thisCONTINUE READING…

strength

Trying to find the strength to make it through the day can be difficult with mental illness. Since attempting suicide several times in a short space of time, I’ve been under the home treatment team. It doesn’t help that some of the people I have never met before. Do they actually know my diagnosis – EUPD, and that paranoia is one of my traits? The man today, whom I had never met before, didn’t understandCONTINUE READING…

chronic emptiness

The chronic emptiness in borderline personality disorder is what makes this mental disorder so misunderstood by the mentally able. It may seem like we are trying to say that we are ‘special’ or even being ‘manipulative’, but if you have never felt this chronic emptiness then you will never understand how mentally isolating it feels to be so alone in a world of plenty. There is so much variety in this world, so much vibranceCONTINUE READING…

overreacting in BPD

I’m tired of overreacting in BPD to something as silly as someone not showering or making an effort, which may seem extreme to normal minded person, but this is what actually goes on in the head of a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. What my mind did was link to a time when my partner had shaved his face before he was meeting his ex-girlfriend, so when he started walking up to me last night forCONTINUE READING…

dr martens

These Dr Martens Original 1460 Patent Women’s Boots I’ve had since December 2016, which were a lovely Christmas gift from my partner. However, they showed these defects within 12 months of wear. In all honestly, they have been on my shoe shelf for two years, and I only wore them when we went bowling just over a week ago, but the tears are growing larger with each use. This is when I complained to thisCONTINUE READING…

splitting

Splitting is a term used in Borderline Personality Disorder. I’ve only recently received a diagnosis of Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder, or BPD, as it was previously called by the National Institute For Health And Care Excellence (NICE). One of my recurring issues during periods of crisis is something called splitting. This has caused incredible harm with my partner, and he’s actually afraid of me because he doesn’t know how I am from one day toCONTINUE READING…