skin condition

The following text is the copyright of The Recovery Village. The aim is to raise awareness of dermatillomania, or compulsive skin picking, and to dispel the common myths that often arise Myth #3: Dermatillomania is caused by an underlying skin condition. Fact: Skin picking results in skin damage, but is not itself caused by any skin abnormalities. Skin picking disorder is psychological impulse control and obsessive-compulsive disorder where the individual picks at normal skin. TheyCONTINUE READING…

christianity is not religion

This is going to be a slightly longer post than 1 Minute, because this content is so very important for this atheist world. Many people are turned off God today because they have an automatic assumption that they need to stop doing this, or stop doing that, because that is what ‘religion’ teaches. God has made it clear in the Holy Bible that He loves us, but we are all guilty before him. He callsCONTINUE READING…

dark thoughts

It hasn’t been a good day today. I woke up sobbing, then went into prayer and read the bible. I asked God to use this vessel of a body for His glory, tried to surrender my life but said to God that I don’t know how this looks. I’ve met really horrible Christians in my time who no doubt think that they are no longer sinning, because I was struggling with the skin picking, orCONTINUE READING…

concept 2

I’ve officially become part of the Concept 2 crowd, and what a strong sturdy rowing machine this is. It’s exciting to receive a new fitness machine like the Concept 2 because all sorts of thoughts flowed through my head.  My initial plan was to perform twenty x 200m distance intervals, with a ten second rest in between, but I completely flumped at set two. I was absolutely knackered. It was on the highest resistance ten.CONTINUE READING…

self harm disorder

Part 2 of the 8 part myths about skin picking disorder blog posts, with the copyright of the text at therecoveryvillage.com. Myth #2: Excoriation is a type of self-harm. Fact: While compulsive skin picking is harmful to the picker, it is not a self-harm disorder. Self-harm, officially known as “non-suicidal self-injury” (NSSI), is a psychological disorder where affected individuals deliberately inflict destruction on their own body tissue. They usually do this by biting, cutting, scratchingCONTINUE READING…

skin picking disorder myth 1

I found this helpful article on therecoveryvillage.com, so I’m going to include this in eight separate posts. Text taken from https://www.therecoveryvillage.com Myth #1: Skin picking is just a bad habit. Fact: Skin picking is a disorder that has known genetic, anatomical, physiological and environmental causes. Recent research has demonstrated that compulsive skin picking appears to be related to anatomical changes in the brain. Specifically, changes in the thickness of the brain cortex in the parietalCONTINUE READING…

thoughts of suicide

I am glad I am alive. I have Almighty God my creator to thank for that. However, there are desperate days when I have thoughts of suicide. The overwhelming feelings can cloud any lucidity and I often end up crying in desperation looking for a way to end these feelings of loneliness, desperation, self-hate etc. I don’t want to hurt anyone I really don’t. And I don’t act this way to manipulate, because the LordCONTINUE READING…

paranoia

Paranoia is a horrible trait within mental illness. It is cruel to feel scared of people, family, and society in general, but these are the thoughts that come with Borderline. Occasionally I get the thought that a car is going to pull out a gun and shoot me, while I’m out walking, or that a random person will stab me. I get so afraid of human beings, at times. I’m afraid to look someone inCONTINUE READING…

what does borderline personality disorder look like

As I said in my previous blog post, I have no official diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but I’ve watched videos of its traits and believe that I meet 8 of its 9 common traits. My doctor just thinks I have depression, but I know it is far deeper than just depression because of the way I act. Here is an example. I was at my partner’s house and had just woken up. A plumberCONTINUE READING…

I’m starting a daily diary about my mental illness, because I have no official diagnosis, but there is not enough help for people out there who are struggling. So if you are having suicidal thoughts, as I do, you self harm as a kind of self-medication and soother, and you have eratic ups and down mood swings, as I do – please know that you are not alone. I know that I am not aloneCONTINUE READING…