Is borderline rage the same as splitting? I have no idea, but I’m trying to be aware of my symptoms, yet I cannot in those awful moments when it’s happening. I can go from loving my husband to wanting to divorce him in a second. I think it’s called splitting in BPD, but my emotions are filled with rage. It’s terrible behaviour because I don’t know if what I’m feeling in those moments is theCONTINUE READING…
Those of you with Borderline Personality Disorder or Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD), as it is also known, may experience splitting. It’s a horrible experience when it comes. As we cannot control our emotions already, feelings of anger and hatred can come out against others and we act with impulse. What is Borderline Personality Disorder and Splitting According to Very Well Health, BPD splitting is a symptom of borderline personality disorder (BPD) in which a person isCONTINUE READING…
I’ve been struggling with my emotions for over ten years, unable to deal this raw intensity, tired of being too sensitive and tearful. I came across the symptoms of BPD in a short pamphlet that I picked up from a doctor’s surgery in Heywood, and upon reading about the criteria for BPD, I couldn’t believe that this was me, this was what I had been experiencing for so very long. I hadn’t heard of thisCONTINUE READING…
I’m tired of overreacting in BPD to something as silly as someone not showering or making an effort, which may seem extreme to normal minded person, but this is what actually goes on in the head of a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. What my mind did was link to a time when my partner had shaved his face before he was meeting his ex-girlfriend, so when he started walking up to me last night forCONTINUE READING…
Is there understanding from your friends and family when you describe your behaviour because of borderline personality disorder? Until I picked up that short five page mental disorders booklet in Heywood, I had never ever considered that I might have borderline personality disorder, until I read its symptoms — instability in relationships, fear of rejection / abandonment, suicidal thoughts, self-harming behaviour, paranoia etc. The GP had just said I had major depressive disorder back in 2016 afterCONTINUE READING…
Part 2 of the 8 part myths about skin picking disorder blog posts, with the copyright of the text at therecoveryvillage.com. Myth #2: Excoriation is a type of self-harm. Fact: While compulsive skin picking is harmful to the picker, it is not a self-harm disorder. Self-harm, officially known as “non-suicidal self-injury” (NSSI), is a psychological disorder where affected individuals deliberately inflict destruction on their own body tissue. They usually do this by biting, cutting, scratchingCONTINUE READING…
I am glad I am alive. I have Almighty God my creator to thank for that. However, there are desperate days when I have thoughts of suicide. The overwhelming feelings can cloud any lucidity and I often end up crying in desperation looking for a way to end these feelings of loneliness, desperation, self-hate etc. I don’t want to hurt anyone I really don’t. And I don’t act this way to manipulate, because the LordCONTINUE READING…
As I said in my previous blog post, I have no official diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but I’ve watched videos of its traits and believe that I meet 8 of its 9 common traits. My doctor just thinks I have depression, but I know it is far deeper than just depression because of the way I act. Here is an example. I was at my partner’s house and had just woken up. A plumberCONTINUE READING…
I’m starting a daily diary about my mental illness, because I have no official diagnosis, but there is not enough help for people out there who are struggling. So if you are having suicidal thoughts, as I do, you self harm as a kind of self-medication and soother, and you have eratic ups and down mood swings, as I do – please know that you are not alone. I know that I am not aloneCONTINUE READING…
It’s pointless visiting my doctor to talk about my mental health problems, because I’m just one of hundreds of clients that he has. Since I lost my job in 2016 due to deteriorating mental health problems, I’ve gradually worsened to the point where it is lucky if I have one or two days in a row when I’m feeling actually okay to go about life. Tearful episodes can last for hours, or the depression canCONTINUE READING…
