Trying to find the strength to make it through the day can be difficult with mental illness. Since attempting suicide several times in a short space of time, I’ve been under the home treatment team. It doesn’t help that some of the people I have never met before. Do they actually know my diagnosis – EUPD, and that paranoia is one of my traits? The man today, whom I had never met before, didn’t understandCONTINUE READING…
Paranoia is a horrible trait within mental illness. It is cruel to feel scared of people, family, and society in general, but these are the thoughts that come with Borderline. Occasionally I get the thought that a car is going to pull out a gun and shoot me, while I’m out walking, or that a random person will stab me. I get so afraid of human beings, at times. I’m afraid to look someone inCONTINUE READING…
I’m starting a daily diary about my mental illness, because I have no official diagnosis, but there is not enough help for people out there who are struggling. So if you are having suicidal thoughts, as I do, you self harm as a kind of self-medication and soother, and you have eratic ups and down mood swings, as I do – please know that you are not alone. I know that I am not aloneCONTINUE READING…
