Is borderline rage the same as splitting? I have no idea, but I’m trying to be aware of my symptoms, yet I cannot in those awful moments when it’s happening. I can go from loving my husband to wanting to divorce him in a second. I think it’s called splitting in BPD, but my emotions are filled with rage. It’s terrible behaviour because I don’t know if what I’m feeling in those moments is theCONTINUE READING…
Trying to find the strength to make it through the day can be difficult with mental illness. Since attempting suicide several times in a short space of time, I’ve been under the home treatment team. It doesn’t help that some of the people I have never met before. Do they actually know my diagnosis – EUPD, and that paranoia is one of my traits? The man today, whom I had never met before, didn’t understandCONTINUE READING…
I am glad I am alive. I have Almighty God my creator to thank for that. However, there are desperate days when I have thoughts of suicide. The overwhelming feelings can cloud any lucidity and I often end up crying in desperation looking for a way to end these feelings of loneliness, desperation, self-hate etc. I don’t want to hurt anyone I really don’t. And I don’t act this way to manipulate, because the LordCONTINUE READING…
